Erkekler Kanlı Severler

Erkekler kalple sever
Ayrıca başka taraflarıyla da
Yalnız yanılmayın yalnızca
Başka taraflarıyla sevmez
Bilim açıklar güzelce
Kalbe kan gider
Beyne kan gider
Başka tarafa da kan gider
Başka tarafa kan gittiği zamanlar
Beyindeki kandan daha ağır gelir
Başka taraftaki kan
Bu yüzden ilkel güdülenme ile
Meşgul olur erkekler
Ama geçici bir heves gibi
Kısa süre sonra sona erer
Geri kalıp kalp
Beyne çekilir kan
Erkek anlar ki aslında
Beyniyle sevmiyormuş
İşte bu yüzden daha sağlam
Sever severse eğer tabii
Kızlar kadınlar ise beyinleriyle
Sever, kalpleriyle değil
Kalpsizdir kadınlar
Erkeklerde vardır kalp
Beyinlerinin sözünü dinledikten
Sonra kalpleri ne yapacaklarına
Karar verir
Kadınlar ise beyinlerindeki
Kalp sandıkları aşk duygularıyla
Ki bu boş bir yanılsamadır
Hareket ederler
Erkekler rahattır özgürdür
Yalınca açıkça amaçlarını belli
Ederler utanmazlar
Utanmamaları da onları sapık
Yapar öyle mi?
Asıl kadınlardır fena yaratıklar
Gizli saçma mantıklarıyla
Belki de sınırlamalar yüzünden
Çekinik kalırlar
Susturulmuş olmaları da bir
Patlar sormayın
Sustur susturabilirsen sonra
Erkekler çok daha sağlam sever
Kadınlar ise sadece beyinleriyle
Kan gitmez başka taraflarına çünkü

Questions From a Worker Who Reads

Who built Thebes of the seven gates?

In the books you will find the names of kings.

Did the kings haul up the lumps of rock?

And Babylon, many times demolished

Who raised it up so many times? In what houses

of gold-glittering Lima did the builders live?

Where, the evening that the Wall of China was finished

Did the masons go? Great Rome

Is full of triumphal arches. Who erected them? Over whom

Did the Caesars triumph? Had Byzantium, much praised in song

Only palaces for its inhabitants? Even in fabled Atlantis

The night the ocean engulfed it

The drowning still bawled for their slaves.

The young Alexander conquered India.

Was he alone?

Caesar beat the Gauls.

Did he not have even a cook with him?

Philip of Spain wept when his armada

Went down.Was he the only one to weep?

Frederick the Second won the Seven Year's War. Who

Else won it?

Every page a victory.

Who cooked the feast for the victors?

Every ten years a great man?

Who paid the bill?

So many reports.

So many questions. 

Bertolt Brecht

Ben Sevdiğim İle Birlikte Gitmek İstiyorum

Ben sevdiğim ile birlikte gitmek istiyorum.
Ben bunun neye mal olacağını hesaplamak istemiyorum.
Ben bunun doğru olup olmadığını düşünmek istemiyorum.
Ben onun beni sevip sevmediğini bilmek de istemiyorum.
Ben sevdiğim ile birlikte gitmek istiyorum.

I want to go with the one I love.
I do not want to calculate the cost.
I do not want to think about whether it's good.
I do not want to know whether he loves me.
I want to go with whom I love. 

Bertolt Brecht

My young son asks me

My young son asks me: Must I learn mathematics?
What is the use, I feel like saying. That two pieces
Of bread are more than one's about all you'll end up with.
My young son asks me: Must I learn French?
What is the use, I feel like saying. This State's collapsing.
And if you just rub your belly with your hand and
Groan, you'll be understood with little trouble.
My young son asks me: Must I learn history?
What is the use, I feel like saying. Learn to stick
Your head in the earth, and maybe you'll still survive.

Yes, learn mathematics, I tell him.
Learn your French, learn your history! 

Bertolt Brecht

alıştırma 1: görüntü karlı: antendeki leylek var!

side'nin kumullarında yere uzanmış bir deve yekindi, vücudunu dalgalandırarak ayaklandı, kıçına üşüşen sinekleri bir kuyruk salvosuyla savuşturdu ve yere pizza büyüklüğünde bir tabak bok bıraktı: Kopf!

***

seda sayan'ın sabah programını basan silahlar kuşanmış, sakallı sekiz teröristin ellerindeki silahları ateşlemesiyle tavandaki spotlar tuz buz olup yerlere saçıldı, klarinetçi ekrem bey seken bir kurşunla şehit düştü-- "to be specific, ekrem bey was the first victim in attacks of similar kinds in a country that fell prey to islamic eco-terrorism" (2015 mart ayında bbc prime'da yayınlanacak ve türkiye'yi konu alacak bir belgeselden), saldırganlardan biri elindeki yeşil bayrağı sallayınca seyirciler arasında cılız, zoraki alkışlar koptu: herkeş tekbir sözcüğünün ardından o beklenen sözleri haykırdı--seda hanım çıkan kargaşa esnasında orkestranın kemancısı sayesinde arka kapıdan sıvışırken: "ayol insan haber verir, anacı'ım," boyladılar; yayın devam etse reklamlar girecekti.

***

kopçasını çözdüğü fıstık yeşili pantolonun uçları ayaklarına kadar iniyor ve banyo karolarının aralarında birikmiş suya değiyor, sakalını sıvazlayıp malafatını eline alıyor, tükürüyor, yarım bıraktığı "Bisss..."in gerisi dişlerinin arasında kaybolup giderken dudakları zevkle yanaklarına doğru geriliyor, çamaşır makinasına yaslanan ve beyaz kıçından başka bir kısmı görünmeyen tekstil yığınına doğru adımlıyor, tv dizisinin yönetmeni kameranın vizörüne eğilip bilgiç, kendinden memnun bir edayla gülümsüyor...

***

iş görüşmesi:

-demek müşavir olmak istiyorsunuz, öyle mi?
-siz uygun görürseniz efendim.
-peki, özgeçmişiniz çok etkileyici. ama kişisel özellikleriniz de çok önemli.
-yerden göğe kadar haklısınız...
-mesela, sandaletinizin içine çorap giyer misiniz?
-elbette.
-güzel. müzik?
-hayır, müzik dinlemem. dikkat dağıtır. sivilce yapar.
-hmm. içki içmediğinizi, sigara kullanmadığınızı zaten yazmışsınız...
-evet, haşmetmaabları.
-elini çek oradan.
-af buyurun, dalmışım.
-sesini yükselterek de konuşma.
-...
-yengeç salatası yer misin?
-ağzıma sürmedim. sülalemde hiçkimse yengeç salatası yememiştir.
-hiç bir yetişkini çıplak olarak gördün mü, Jason?
-ha?
-ne ha'sı lan? inek!
-sorunuzu anlamadım.
-bakıyorum, özgeçmişinizde belirttiğiniz kadar da zeki değilmişsiniz.
-...
-ne bakıyorsun öyle. bakma bana!
-...
-ha şöyle.
-...
-hiç bir yetişkini çıplak olarak gördün mü, Jason?
-hayır...
-iyi, birazdan göreceksin. ... neyse, biz işimize bakalım. ... takım tutar mısınız? futbol?
-evet. ayrıca, amatör kümede forvettim.
-güzeeel. haftasonu birlikte oynarız isterseniz.
-...
-çekinmeyin canım. bunda ne var ki? evet bazen kızıyorum ama sizi sevdiğimden.
-çok isterim efendim. yani sizinle futbol oynamayı.
-kahvenizi nasıl içersiniz?
-?
-kahvenizi nasıl içersiniz? diye sordum size.
-nasıl desem...
-kahvenizi nasıl içersiniz? diye sordum size. yani, şekerli mi? orta mı? sade mi?
-efendim, şey, ben kahve içmem.
-güzel. tam istediğim gibi. madagasakar'ın başkenti neresi?
-bilmiyorum.
-ne demek "bilmiyorum"!?. sana ne ulan sülalesini s..tiğimin andavalı. sana ne madagaskar'dan! bıyıklarını da doğru dürüst kesememişsin! takım elbisen de ucuz mu ucuz. nesin lan sen? kimsin lan sen? hep abuk subuk konuşuyorsun. tepemin tasını attırıyorsun... referans mektubu isteyen mi oldu senden? burayı ne sandın sen? madgaskar mı? bütün üstün başın da parfüm kokuyor!
-...
-...bu koku. aklımı başımdan alıyor bu koku...
-bakamlığın iç avlusunu görmüş müydünüz? gelin yaklaşın. çekinmeyin. hep bu an'ı bekledimdi/seni yalvarırken görmek/seni ağlatabilmeeek/ geçmişi senden almak/bütün ümidimdi oooolmaz artık...

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(kitabın editörünün notu)
yazarımız belli ki bazı saplantıların esiri durumunda: buraya kadar yazdıklarında çok obscene laflar ve sahneler var. okurken ar damarım çatladı. ama herifçioğlu yayınevi sahibinin yeğeni. elden bir şey gelmez. bütün bu yazılanlar yazarın sorumlulğundadır , komtanım.

POSTED BY OBLIVIONVOICE AT PAZARTESI, MAYIS 12, 2008 http://oblivionvoice.blogspot.com/ 

Horatius Der Ki

Karakterim eğer ki sadece birkaç ufak hata ile hasar görmüş ama yine de doğru dürüst ve ahlaki ise; yine kusursuz yüzeyde sadece az miktarda seyrek kusurlarımı gösterebiliyorsanız; ve şayet kimse beni açgözlülükle, şehvet düşkünlüğüyle, ahlaksızlıkla itham edemiyorsa;  kirlenmekten bağımsız (çok afedersiniz, bir saniye daha doğrusu kendimi övmekten bağımsız) erdemli bir yaşam sürüyorsam ve dostlarıma iyi birer arkadaş olabildiysem, işte bu beni yeterince memnun kılar.

"If my character is flawed by a few minor faults, but is otherwise decent and moral, if you can point out only a few scattered blemishes on an otherwise immaculate surface, if no one can accuse me of greed, or of prurience, or of profligacy, if I live a virtuous life, free of defilement (pardon, for a moment, my self-praise), and if I am to my friends a good friend," then that is satisfaction enough.

Quintus Horatius 

Ufuk Çizgisi

Genellikle bazı şeyler göründükleri gibi gelmez
Görmek istediğimiz gibi net ve yakın
Gözler yanıltıcı olabilir güvenilmez
Görmek istemediğimiz gibi uzak sen sakın

İnsanlar anlamayacaktır seni kalk dayan
İnsanlar bilemeyecektir belki yaptıklarını
İnsanlar hissedemeyecektir ama sen katlan
İnsanlar duymayacaklardır anlattıklarını

Sen evet sadece sen ayak direyeceksin inandıkların uğruna
Sözünün geçmesi için olmalısın söz gibi ciddi ve keskin
Sarılacaksın hayallerine kendi hayatın kendi geleceğin adına
Sakın ama yalan söyleme sanma kendini kandırabilirsin

Cennet Gözdem

Yaşım daha kaç tamam da anılarımı unutacak mıyım ilerde?
Silinecekler mi hafızamdan yavaş yavaş?

Annem dedi ki ''Onu gördüğünde hissedersin.''
Düşünüyorum da sadece iki kişiye karşı bunu hissettim şu ana kadar.
Birisi Kıvırcık diğeri de Ereğlili.
Karakuş mu, o sadece özlemdi geçmiş zamanlara.
Ben persona'yım, anlatıcıyım. Can Öner değilim.

Kendimi de sizi de kandırabilme yeteneğim var.

Birisi Kıvırcık diğeri de Ereğlili.
Bu iki kişi, benim için özeldi.
Tüm ilişki geçmişim düşünüldüğünde
Evet, Ereğlili için ne yapmadım ki...
Bir anda yola çıkmalar, yeni kelimeler, ifadeler, anlamlar üretmeler...
Saatlerce telefonlarda konuşmalar...
Uykusuz kalıp da okula geç kalmalar...
Çok sevdim seni yar bilesin

Derdim ya seneler geçsin yine karşılaşalım

Bu beraberliğin sonu evliliktir yoksa

Evlenemezdim anla beni, henüz yaşım kaç

İlişkiler kısa şeyler benim için
Uzun ve derin şeyler hissettirseler de
Evliliğe bakış açım apayrı

Evlenmem için kendimi gerçekleştirmem gerekiyor

Hayallerime ulaşmalıyım az çok, ya da ulaşamadığımı görmeliyim

Evlilikle ilgili hayaller sonra gelecekler
Evlilik benim için apayrı bir şey
Evleneceğim kişi çok özel olmalı, senin olduğun gibi
Sevmeliyim her şeyini, kokusunu senin gibi
Ah çok özeldin be Ereğlili
Belki hala öylesin ama bana yabancı ve uzak
Gel artık geri dön bana
Şu an çok güçlüyüm
Evimdeyim İstanbul'da sana çok yakınım çok da uzak
Sen gittin kapanmayı seçtin yapmamalıydın yapma
Gelişme açılmayla olur açacaksın kendini

Ben senin öğretmenin değilim ya da efendin

Sahibin olmayı istedim evet ama kalbinin efendisi

Ne bedeninin ne de beyninin efendisi
Cennet'e kurban olurum ben Ereğlili
Kıvırcık uzak uzakta uzaklaşmakta
Öyle de olacak
Söz verdim ona
Yüzsüzlük yapmayacağım

Ama beni anlamadan
Kendimi ona açıklamadan yaptı yargıları hemen

Bilmiyordu ki ben neden uzaklaştım ondan

Bilmiyordu

Açıklamadım
Soru işaretini alırım

Mesaj atması yeterli

Giant manta raised from the depths off Africa by ship’s anchor

There are few details, but images posted this week to a Nairaland website forum starkly illustrate a story about a giant manta being hauled aboard an oil-rig servicing ship after becoming entangled in its anchor line in the South Atlantic. The unusual catch off Nigeria's Bonny Island involves one of the largest and most docile marine species. Giant mantas, which are found in temperate regions around the planet, can measure nearly 30 feet across and weigh more than a ton. Details of the catch are between the accompanying images and it should be noted that giant mantas, which are plankton eaters, do not possess stinging spines, as mentioned in the description from a forum contributor named Pharrod. 

"The stinging Manta ray was killed when the oil rig servicing ship anchored at the middle of ocean near Bonny Island. The anchor of the ship brought the stinging ray up while the ship was about to sail. The stinging Manta ray was killed while resting at the ocean floor.

"But guess what? It was sold to fishermen that was around when it was killed at the amount of five thousand naira only. It could have been preserved. My friend is one of the people on the ship deck."

http://www.grindtv.com/outdoor/blog/33072/giant+manta+raised+from+the+depths+off+africa+by+ships+anchor/

Aysel

Aysel git başımdan ben sana göre değilim 
Ölümüm birden olacak seziyorum. 
Hem kötüyüm karanlığım biraz çirkinim 
Aysel git başımdan istemiyorum. 

Benim yağmurumda gezinemezsin üşürsün 
Dağıtır gecelerim sarışınlığını 
Uykularımı uyusan nasıl korkarsın, 
hiçbir dakikamı yaşayamazsın. 
Aysel git başımdan ben sana göre değilim. 
Benim için kirletme aydınlığını, 
hem kötüyüm karanlığım biraz çirkinim 

Islığımı denesen hemen düşürürsün, 
gözlerim hızlandırır tenhalığını 
Yanlış şehirlere götürür trenlerim. 
Ya ölmek ustalığını kazanırsın, 
ya korku biriktirmek yetisini. 
Acılarım iyice bol gelir sana, 
sevincim bir türlü tutmaz sevincini. 
Aysel git başımdan ben sana göre değilim. 
Ümitsizliğimi olsun anlasana 
hem kötüyüm, karanlığım biraz, çirkinim. 

Sevindiğim anda sen üzülürsün. 
Sonbahar uğultusu duymamışsın ki 
içinden bir gemi kalkıp gitmemiş, 
uzak yalnızlık limanlarına. 
Aykırı bir yolcuyum dünya geniş, 
Büyük bir kulak çınlıyor içimdeki. 
Çetrefil yolculuğum kesinleşmiş. 
Sakın başka bir şey getirme aklına. 
Aysel git başımdan ben sana göre değilim, 
ölümüm birden olacak seziyorum, 
hem kötüyüm, karanlığım biraz, çirkinim. 
Aysel git başımdan seni seviyorum...

Attila İlhan

Sordum

Sordum
Nasıl katlanıyorsun
Nasıl baş ediyorsun
Bende yoktur sendeki sabır
Sinirlerime hakim olamam
Anlayamadıklarında
Bilinç gerekir algılamalarında

Dedi
Sürekli ders tekrarı yapmalısın
Sürekli tekrar etmelisin
Yoktur onlarda kalıcı akıl
Hafıza edemezlermiş şu an
Olmalıymışın kendini tekrarlayan bir insan

Dedim
Olmaz böyle bir şey
Yapmam yapamam ben
Tekrarlarla mücadele
Gelişmeliyim
Gelişmeli
Geliştirmeliler beni

Güldü
Ben yerimde sayıyorum
Yoktur gelişmeye hacet
İstemem bırak beni
İstemem değilim gelişmeye hasret

Kaldı
Büzüldü
Sindi
Sindi
Küçüldü

Mavi 2

Uyuduğumda benimle
Kalktığımda da
Rüyalarımda
Penceresinden izlemekte
Bazen tuzlu
Bazen can yakıcı
Bazen meraklı
Bazen de sulu
İki kat pencereler çekilir
Kimi zaman da
Buğulaşır gözleri
Göremez net
Bu netlik gidince
Cansız bir balığın gözleri
Türkiye Ermenistan
İran Azerbeycan ölür
Damlaları denizler ağlar
Denizler dökülür

Mavi

Doğmamış çocuk

İçten tekmeleyen his

Yalnızlık bozan

Beraberlik boşluğu

Ruh ikizim

Geride kaldı yarım ay

Tamamlanacağız dolunay

Ellerin ellerimde bitse

Rüzgarın tenime sinse

Ben artık seninleyim

Ve de sensizim

Doğamamış çocuk

Histen gelen içlenme

Yandaşlık kuran

Boşluğun doluluğu

Ruh biçimim

Kıvırcık

Neden gördüm ki seni  ah yeniden
Rüyamda öyle samimi öyle yakın
Uzaklaşmaya çalışırken kendimden
Kalbime o derece yakın yakın

Rüyamda mı evleniyorduk saçma
Seni rahatsız etmeyeceğim
Bir daha derken bir kez ve bir kez daha
Kandırıyordum kendimi hepsi bu

Seninle yaşadıklarımı ne unutacağım
Ne de unutmak için bir çaba içinde olacağım
Hepsi gerçekti sıcacık ve şehvetli sen ve ben, ve ben
Aralıklı böyle anlar yaşayıp daha da yalnızlaşan ben

Sosyofobik

yakın yüzleşmek ha kolay değil
zor olur güzelim bana bak
insanlar çok yakın değil
bir o kadar da çok mu uzak

kafan dolmuş sinekler
sıkmalısın beynine bir kurşun
ölsün ölü düşünceler
temas zorluğu kurmuşsun

zor yaklaşmak dokunmak zor
uzlaşmak sızlaşmak çok kor
doğallıktan gelmez şuh zarar
elde edemezsin hayır kim seni takar

Escher's Relativity

- Hocam araştırma görevliniz olayım mı?
- kadro yok valla, olsa dükkan senin... haha. çalışan merak duygusundan ödün vermeyen asistan. ee tabii benim de kerli ferli bir titrim olmalı ama di mi? o da yok. :)

Rinna Rinnan Nay

Melengecin dalında çifte sığırcık diley, çifte sığırcık
Ciğerime ateş değdi öley diley, öley gencecik
Zehir pamuk ırgatlığı gavur gündelikçilik
Rinna-rinna-nay, yüreğim bölündü lay
Damarlarım delindi kan gider kan gider

Melengecin dalında çifte saksağan diley, çifte saksağan
Boynumda dönüp batır öley diley, şol kahpe devran
Ağlarım bir yandan, kan kusarım bir yandan
Rinna-rinnan-nay, ellerim kırıldı lay
Gözüm seli duruldu kum gider kum gider

Melengecin dalında çifte güvercin diley, çifte güvercin
Eğnimde göynek yok öley diley, ayağım yalın
Ölürsem kahrımdan öldüğüm bilin
Rinna-rinnan-nay, yollarım kapandı lay
Bulutlar parçalandı gün gider gün gider

Melengecin dalında çifte ispinoz diley, çifte ispinoz
Azıktan yetimim öley diley, katıktan öksüz
Dirliksiz düzensiz hanidir hürriyetsiz
Rinna-rinnan-nay, künyemiz yazıldı lay
Kervanımız dizildi can gider can gider...

Attila İlhan

Karşıki

Perdesiz pencereler
Yarı perdeli camlar
Çıplak bedenlerde
Erkek ve Kadın
Bel altı sırları gizlenmekte

Şafak sönmüş
Işıklar yanıp sönmekte
Siparişler ulaşır
Belirsiz vakitlerde

Meraklı meraksız gözler
Çarpar arada tetikte
Silüetler kol gezer
Habersizce izlendiklerinde

Yalnızlık duyumsanır
Erkek ve Kadın
Çıplak bedenlerde
Ne kadar doğrudur bilinmez
Pusmalı mümkün mertebe

Bencil

                                                                                           http://www.michigan.gov/images/Plan_First_hz_164024_7.jpg


Zaman kişisel gelişim zamanıdır. Bencil olmayı olabilmeyi öğrenmek gerekir.

Nasıl yani? Sanki bencil olmak güzel bir şey, sen diyorsun ki bu öğrenilmeli, doğru mu anladım?

Aynen öyle diyorum, bencil olmak öğrenilmelidir. Nasıl mı, anlatayım. Bir şey mi yapmak istiyorsun, bu ne olursa olsun fark etmez, yeterince bencil olmazsan eğer, yapamazsın istediğin şeyi.

Mesela kitap okumak istiyorsun. Arkadaşın buluşmak istedi, TV'de film var. Bencil olacaksın ve zamanını paylaşmayacaksın ne arkadaşınla ne de TV ile.

E böyle arkadaşsız kalırım?

Hayır. Kendini geliştiriyorsun. Kişisel bir hazzı ön plana çıkarıyorsun veya istediğin şeyi plandan eyleme dökmeye çalışıyorsun. Yani, bunu yapmaya çalışırken sen, arkadaşın diye nitelediğin kişi buna saygı göstermiyorsa arkadaşın olmasın daha iyi.

Özgürlüğünü yaşamaya çalışıyorsun. Kişisel isteğini, düşünceni gerçekleştirmek istiyorsun ve sana engel oluyor. Senin özgürlük alanına giriyor. Kendisiyle vakit geçirmeni istiyor.

Zaten sen arkadaşınla buluşursan ya da TV izlemek istersen, gerçekten kitap okumayı istememişsindir demektir. Hangisi daha önemli, daha gerekli buna bakmalısın; sıkıcılığına kolaylığına zorluğuna kafa yormayacaksın.


Mesela bir örnek daha: Kilo vermek istiyorsun. Bunun için neler yapman gerektiğini biliyorsun. Tam bu bildiklerini, öğrendiklerini eyleme geçireceksin; hop ordan fastfood geliyor, arkadaşın çıkıyor, anneannen börek yapmış, annen kek pişirmiş.

Sen eğer gerekeni yerine getirmezsen kilo vermeyi gerçekten istememişsin demektir arkadaşım.

Fastfood'a karşı, arkadaşına, anneannene, annene karşı bencil olacaksın. Vücuduna karşı bile bencil olacaksın. İsteklerine karşı bencil olacaksın.

Kendi başının dikine gideceksin gerektiğinde. Kendi düşündüğünü yapacaksın.

İyi tamam da bencillik denilen şey bu değildir ki?

Seni mi kıracağım, istersen buna benci'lik diyelim. Hangi kelimeyi nasıl çağrıştıracağın sana kalmış. İstersen elma diyelim ya da armut.

Senin işlerin mi var, plan mı yaptın? Planını ön plana almayacaksan plan yapma. Çünkü sen anladığım kadarıyla hangi taraftan rüzgar eserse ona göre yön değiştiriyorsun.

Yaprak mı olacaksın, dümeni rotası belli bir gemi mi? Sen seç.

Kendinin mi kölesi olacaksın, çevrende olup bitenin kölesi mi? Seçim yapmalısın çok geçmeden.

Bazıları buna başarı yolundaki fedakarlık da der. Bir insan ne kadar çok fedakarlık yaparsa o kadar çok başarılı olacaktır. Fedakarlıklar değerlidir. Neyi feda edeceğini iyi bilmek gerekir. Kendi zamanı mı feda edeceksin, yoksa benci olup da kendi yolunda mı gideceksin?

Unutulmamalıdır ki eğer bizi rahatsız eden bir durum varsa, bunu ancak ve ancak yaptıklarımızla etkileyerek değiştirebiliriz. Olay bizde bitiyor; ne kadar benci olacağımızda.

Fransızca mı öğreneceksin? Gerekenleri öğren plan yap ve uygula bir düzen içinde.Basbaya ya, gerekenleri yap. Her şeyi yarım yamalak  yapacağına bari artık bazı şeyleri tam yap. Gerekeni yaptım diyebil. Hakkını ver isteklerinin.

Kendini tertip etme ve ehlileştirme vakti geldi, ne dersin? Ehlileş artık, kendine kendi hayatına biraz daha evcil ol.

Hayatta önemli olan ne yaptığın değil, neler yapabilecekken yapmadığındır.

Don't Plagiarize

DON’T PLAGIARIZE

Plagiarism is using someone else’s ideas as if they were your own. It’s dishonest to present other people’s ideas as your own, and it will usually get you in very serious trouble—in school, at work, everywhere. This doesn’t mean you can’t use your research in your paper, but you must give the credit for the ideas that are not your own and are not “common knowledge” to the source you got the information from.What is common knowledge? It’s information that many have—most of the information in an encyclopedia, for example, is common knowledge.

Here are four strategies for avoiding plagiarism.

■ Quote—copy the text you want to use in your paper word-for-word and surround it with quotation

marks. Then, cite the source in one of the ways described below. Be careful! You don’t want

your entire paper to be long quotations from other sources. Use quotations sparingly and only

when they really add to your paper.

■ Paraphrase—rewrite the main idea and the supporting details in your own words. Then, cite the

source in one of the ways described below.

■ Summarize—restate the main idea in your own words. Unlike paraphrasing, summarizing is very

general. Then, cite the source in one of the ways described below.

■ Interpret—add your own thoughts. Take the information you have collected and tell your reader

what your own conclusions are. Because these are your own ideas, you do not need to cite a source

for them.

Pg. 133-134, Better Writing Right Now!, Francine D. Galko, LearningExpress, LLC, New York, 2001.

How To Write A Novel

== Steps ==

# Get inspired. A novel starts with inspiration. Novels differ from novellas and short stories because they are larger and more complex. A novel is a sweeping epic, made up of thousands of glimpses that develop into a year, a decade, even a century. You must first decide how best to master this responsibility. Spend a lot of time thinking about it. Plan, but not too much. Dream, even more than necessary. And always remember, in the wise words of Professor Bhaer from Little Women, "You should be writing from life. From the depths of your soul... There is more to you than this, if you have the courage to write it."

# Remember: Writing isn’t always a perfect process. It proceeds backwards, inside out, or upside down more often than forwards. Some writers like to map out their story ahead of time. Other writers jump into the story head first. Skip the first three steps, or add more detailed steps of your own. As The Writer, it’s your decision.

#Decide on your setting. A setting is as important as the entire novel, as important as the climax, because the places we live in shape us - and likewise, our characters - into who we are meant to be. Settings have to be concrete, specific, and well-thought out. Think of both the place and the time. If your setting is a townhouse in downtown Ottawa, what type of house? What colour? Who are your characters' neighbours? Who sells them fish at 5:00 am on Saturdays? Who delivers their mail? What species of tree is in their front yard? You must find a way to envision the entire scene, and the more you do this, the more you discover how much a setting really includes. If your novel takes place in a specific time period, you must research everything that happened, from who was Prime Minister then to what was in the news.

#Figure out what your story is going to be about. This is called the plot. To start, decide what the novel is about. It could be about a pirate captain who voyages the seven seas or a knight who defends his fortress from cruel invaders or a concentration camp escapee. Once you have the central idea it WILL develop into a full fledged plot. A plot needs a beginning, a middle, and an end. It also must have conflict and a resolution pulled on by believable motivation that will make your writing static.

#* Consider using authoring software if you do not have a good feel for doing it on your own. This can be expensive but can help both the novice and the professional in developing solid stories.

# Create your main characters. Usually there is a main good guy (protagonist) and a main bad guy (antagonist). There are several ways to do this. One way could be to draw rough sketches of them. Another could be to write up a list of questions (name? age? pastimes? fetishes? flaws? temptation?) and answer them for each character. Or just start writing and take them raw. Make sure that these characters are believable and natural.

#*Don’t make your protagonist perfect. If your protagonist is perfectly flawless, your readers will have no way to connect to him or her. After all, nobody’s perfect. For the protagonist character development is very important. These are scenes that tell the reader something more about the character. This will help the readers feel more strongly about him or her.

#*Same applies to the antagonist, they shouldn't be all bad.  If they have no good or human qualities, your readers will have no way to connect, and they will seem wooden.

# Create your other characters.  Don’t make the mistake of thinking secondary characters are unimportant. They will inhabit the back drop of the novel and must help bring the place alive. These characters should be explored but remember that they should not take the place of the main character. If you find yourself focusing your attention on a secondary character more than the main character, question why you are doing so. Is the secondary character a favorite "pet" character? Is the main character boring or undeveloped? Or is the "secondary character" actually the main character?

# Start writing. There are several common approaches to writing:

#*''Begin with the ending in mind.'' Meaning, of course, you set the outcome of the story in your head, and work toward it. If you know the ending of the story, it can help you form the theme, the plot, the settings, the characters, and it can help you progress more easily toward that ending.

#* ''The big picture approach.'' Try to create the world (the overall setting and environment), and then build on it to create your novel. Create geography, races, towns, cities, capitals, cults, factions, governments, etc.

#* ''Dive in approach.'' You have the list of the idea, and you start writing while it's still fresh in your mind. Take few, short breaks while writing with this method, as to not forget what you're thinking about. And also- be ready for this to hit you at anytime. Inspiration's not going to warn you when it's about to come knocking on your door.

#* ''Start with characters.'' Create three or four characters and let the plot build up around them. This way will allow the characters to be more embedded in the plot.

#  Make the Commitment. You do need to understand what you're undertaking. Many wonderful writers go unnoticed and unread because their drawers are filled with unfinished novels. You must say to your self that if this novel does not get written then you can only blame your self. Try to set small goals. This will keep you motivated.

# Create a habit. “We are creatures of habit,” it is said, and it’s true. Do the following things to help make your writing a habit:

#*Make yourself write every day, whether it's a sentence, a chapter, or more, you must regularly dedicate some time to your novel. Set aside a quiet hour where everyone must leave you alone. Morning or night, it doesn’t matter, although some writers work better at certain times of the day. Just make sure you write daily! Or, an even better idea, set a time limit for each day, say, a few hours, so you don't go insane trying to finish your story but you do have some motivation to make use of your hours before that timer dings.

#* Create a writing space. Find a cozy place where you can relax and there are no distractions. Get a good chair to sit in which won't give you back pains after hours and hours of sitting and writing. You don't write a book in an hour, it takes months, so protect your back.

#* If you are a procrastinator, try joining NaNoWriMo: write 50,000 words in one month to complete your novel. Writers tend to work better when there's a deadline to face. More motivation.

# Seek constructive feedback. Never show your precious writing to someone you don't completely trust. Your writing is in its “baby stage” and it needs nurture and love. You need someone encouraging, but who isn't afraid to be honest and completely blunt with you. Remember, only take criticism  from a friend as long as you know they are being honest with you, otherwise it is better to get criticism from an editor or agent.

#* Consider joining an online or offline writing community. This can provide support, feedback, and peer reviews.

# Rewrite. The story is really written during this part. Editing and rewriting is what makes the story good, because you can always write fuller. The writing stage is when you set your ideas down. The rewriting stage is the time to make it great. But be careful not to over-edit. It is possible to rip out your story while you straighten your grammar. Check with two or more "personal editors" (aka, friends, family, teachers, etc...) before you do a massive edit (although your opinion is the final decision it is not always the right answer). Always save the first draft in a safe place. Sometimes you DO go overboard with the editing and end up wanting to go back to that first draft.

# Keep rewriting. A great story is never truly finished, and as an amateur, you really don't have any time restrictions. “A story is never finished, only abandoned.”

# Publish your work. This is the conclusion that most writers aim for.  Whether you choose a well known publishing company, an online e-publisher, or [[Self Publish a Book|self-publish]].

http://www.wikihow.com/Write-a-Novel

You finish reading another great novel and daydream about being the hero or heroine in the story. And sigh. "Some day," you promise yourself, "I'm going to write a novel of my own."

Maybe now is a good time. This article will give you the key steps to get started.

With the aging of the Baby Boomer generation, many folks are turning to thoughts of self-achievement, which may include writing a novel. Many are reaching out to see what it takes to write the novel they have held inside as a dream for years.

Many find, as I have, that having some creative writing project for their spare time is a good way to unwind after a demanding day or week at work. Most of our time is spent using our left-brain analytical skills. Spending some time using our right-brain creative skills can be a wonderful way to balance our lives. It will help you live longer too.

I have been enjoying writing part-time since 1995 and have participated in several critique groups and writing discussion groups. My genre is science fiction, no surprise if you know I have a bachelor's in physics and math. I have written several short stories, have finished one novel, and am working on my second. It's been a great trip. Yours will be too.

Short story or novel?

Some start out with a short story, one that can be completed in a couple days. A novel takes years of effort on a part-time basis to complete 70,000 to 140,000 words. If you opt for a novel, you will find that the long time it takes is one of your greatest challenges. Of every hundred people who start a novel, only three finish. If your goal is to see if you can write that book you've been dreaming about, then by all means, give it a try. You won't know how you feel until after you're into it. It took me six years to finish my first novel. 

Read that as six years of pleasure.

When to write?

I recommend you find your best time of day and time of week to write, free from stress. Get up early and write before you go to work, go to a quiet room after dinner, or spend several hours in a burst of writing in seclusion on the weekend. Pick the time and place where you will be free of interaction with others. Turn the television off. Some enjoy writing with a glass of wine or instrumental music. Avoid music with lyrics--you want the words in your story to come from inside your own head, not the words of the songs. The key is to find a "place" where you can be free of life's distractions, where you can go freely into your creative mood.

Where to start?

Most novels begin as an idea, which may be a special character, a setting, a conflict, or a challenge for a character. Some folks start with a daydream. But a daydream is not a novel or a story unless it has conflict between characters, a change of events or relationships over time, and a resolution. In other words, it has to have a plot, not just a wonderful feeling.

Buying books on writing fiction

You don't have to invent creative writing on your own; many have gone before you and many of those have written books. You can learn a lot by reading some of them. But I caution you against buying too many books right away. Many writers' bookshelves are crammed full of books, most of which they have not read. You can't learn how to write fiction just by reading a 'how to' book. They help, yes, but to learn how to write you must WRITE.

After you have read a few books and started your story, you will learn where you need the most help. That's the time to look for additional 'how to' books.

I also suggest you read some books in the genre of book you are thinking of writing. This will give you an idea of what others have done and what readers may expect in that genre.

Resources

The local bookstore is full of books on writing. The Internet is another great source. You may want to read my articles on writing fiction at www.crayne.com. These include "How to Grow Your Fiction Writing Skills", "Career Plan for Fiction Writers", and "How to Succeed in an Online Writing Workshop". My "How to Critique Fiction" article is used in universities and critique groups around the world, is very popular on the Internet, and is read by about 10,000 people every year.

Writing classes

If you want to jump start your writing skills, attend some classes on creative writing at your local adult education facility, community college, or university. A good one will be one that forces you to write some exercises. You not only get some valuable information from someone who has written, but you will get some experience writing short pieces for your assignments. And best of all, you will get quick feedback.

I stumbled along on my own for a couple years writing stuff that can be described as having an aroma akin to the brown stuff that comes out the posterior of animals. It was riddled with flat characters, melodrama, dull plots, and unbelievable dialogue. I used to write that smelly stuff at ten miles per hour. Three classes later, I was writing at fifty. The odor was better, too.

The first step: a character with conflict

Start with the main character, your protagonist. Pick a gender, name, role in life, etc. Give him a problem, something he wants or is fighting. Create a reason why he will have great difficulty solving his problem. That often includes people around him who have motives that conflict with his. Your novel will be better reading if your protagonist has some internal conflict, too, something in him that fights his getting what he wants. If he is only a strong character who is predestined to win, you will write him as a flat, one-dimensional character--and he will be boring for others to read.

Create some characters who will give him a hard time or who will be directly opposed to his getting what he wants. You may want to start a computer file on each main character, to which you will add notes as you go along. Create a short description of how your protagonist he will struggle against the others and/or against himself to reach the ending. This is the start of your plot.

How to design a simple plot

There are nine and twenty different ways to design a plot. Two of the most popular formats are the Three Act Play and the Narrative Structure. I prefer the later; your mileage may vary. You may start with one design and change it later. Each story is unique and you don't have to follow any predetermined format.

In the Narrative Structure format, the plot starts with a period of Status Quo, where you introduce the protagonist. Then comes the Inciting Incident, where something happens that changes his life forever. The First Turning Point is the next event, which changes his thinking on how to solve his problems. The Second Turning Point is another conflict in the protagonist. This could be where he makes the conscious effort to behave differently. Then comes the Crisis, the point where he decides to fight or flee. In the Climax, the moment of truth arrives. Finally, there is the Resolution, where the protagonist's main story problem is solved, one way or the other.

You may find it helpful to get a large piece of blank paper and use PostIt notes to briefly describe the events in the lives of the main characters. This method allows you to easily rearrange the notes/events as you develop the design of your plot. I suggest you start first with the story's hero and make your notes to cover his story moving from left to right in time order. Then you can add below his row of notes additional rows of notes, one for each main character.

Make sure you put the characters' names at the top of each note so you can keep track of who is who as you move them around with new inspirations. It helps if you line up the notes vertically to match the events in the life of the protagonist. That's where the big piece of paper comes in handy.

Developing your characters

As you write, you will find you need to know more about the characters. Some writers find it helpful to sit down and interview each character, asking him questions to find out what he's like.

I suggest you start a separate file for each person. Start with briefly describing your general ideas about him: name, age, role in the story, occupation, etc. What is his goal in the book? Then create his core traits and values: what are his ambitions, disappointments, strengths, and weaknesses? Next, look for reasons why he can't have what he wants and any paradoxes. Maybe he is very organized and has craves owning his own home, but he also loves to gamble.

It is very important to list his dominant emotions, beliefs, and attitudes. Attitude is very important. This will help you write him as a strong character who jumps off the page. Then try to think of some little details about him that you can write in. People form their impressions of others based a lot on what they look like or how they behave.

Writing scenes

When you are ready to write a new scene, look at your design notes. Pick a character and an event. Chose his attitude, give him a problem, and start writing what he does, says to himself, and says to others. Remember: you are not reporting an event as an objective viewer. Get inside his head. Tell his mini-story showing his emotions, the setting, actions, and dialogue as you live through his mind for that scene. You'll experience the writer's high--and love every minute of it.

And don't forget to show lots of emotion in your scenes.

"No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader. No surprise in the writer, no surprise in the reader." - Robert Frost

Each writer must find his own style. You get to know your characters better as you write their scenes. They will let me know what they like and don't like. Along the way, you may get flashes of inspiration and change the character's plot. You can do that, you know. It IS a creative process. You're not writing a manual here; you're writing a story to entertain.

Remember: you learn as you write. As a matter of fact, you have to WRITE in order to learn HOW to write. You can't get it all from books and lectures.

The famous 'writers block'

Invariably there will come a time when the words won't flow, no matter how hard you try. You've shut the door. You've cleared your desk of everything else. Your computer is open to the right file or your pencil is sharp with a clean pad of paper. But nothing happens.

"Writing is easy. All you do is sit staring at a blank sheet of paper until the drops of blood form on your forehead." - Gene Fowler

Writers block is probably more of a problem with beginning writers than the experienced ones. Perhaps the reason you are hung up is that you have not prepared your materials enough. Yeah, that's it, you say. You open up your old notes and reorganize for the sixtieth time. But still no flow.

Try this: Turn off the editor in your head and just bang some words. The best cure for writers block is to write. Anything. Remember:

"The worst thing you write is better than the best thing you didn't write." - Unknown

I used to freeze up when I sat down at the appointed hour and nothing would come to mind. Oh my god! What to do? That's where the outline of the plot I described above comes in handy. Review where you were before, look for an event note for a character, and dive into the mind of the viewpoint character. Become him. Feel his emotion. And write his mini-story for this scene. Don't worry about your first draft; you can edit them later. Just bang out some words. Maybe try a glass of wine to loosen your inhibitions. The flow will come.

Join a writer's group?

Writing fiction is a solitary activity. It can't be any other way. There will come a time when you want to talk about your writing and will find that those around you who are NOT fiction writers are of little help. That's the time to seek out other writers. You can also learn from them, but be aware that creative people have opinions. Lots of them. Just because someone has been writing for years or has written a book does not mean he know how to help you write YOUR book.

Some writers won't get published but love to attend meetings of writers. There will always be folks who like to hang around writers. Who knows? You may be one of them.

Remember this: Don't spend too much time visiting writing groups. You are not writing then. You are writing when you are WRITING.

That said, you will find that participating in a critique group to be of great value. Such groups get together to read parts of their stories and get feedback from others. I heartedly recommend you give them a try; the feedback you get will be invaluable. You will also learn how to prepare a critique. (See my article above.) One great benefit of critiquing the words of others is that it makes you more aware of the weaknesses in your own writing. I have participated in several critique groups and have critiqued the works of perhaps a hundred and fifty writers by now. I can testify it is worthwhile.

The single most important value of getting critiques is in having someone shine their flashlight on outright errors or weak spots in your writing. It is amazing, but no matter how hard you try, you simply cannot see the weaknesses in your own writing. It's that writers high I talked about earlier. It blinds you.

What do you do when you are done with your novel?

If you stick at it long enough, you may be one of the three percent who finish a novel. That's when you get the second kind of high: the satisfaction of having finished the damned thing that has been sucking the blood out of you for years.

It's a rush, I'll tell you. Never before have two little words like "The End" had such a feeling in your life. Enjoy it. You've earned it.

Rewriting

You think it's over just because you finished your first draft? Ha. Think again.

"First drafts are for learning what your novel or story is about." - Bernard Malamud

You will believe it is the best novel ever written; every first-time novel writer does. Sorry buddy, but the real work lies ahead of you.

"There is no great writing, only great rewriting." - Justice Brandeis

"Books aren't written - they're rewritten. Including your own. It is one of the hardest things to accept, especially after the seventh rewrite hasn't quite done it." - Michael Crichton

After you've attended the critique group, gotten someone to give you feedback on every chapter, and spent the long hours rewriting, you finally come to the third writing high. You're done fixing the damned thing.

What do you do next?

The glow from writing that novel will be terrific. You'll walk around with a swelled head for weeks. But eventually the glow will dim. The rush will go away. And a void appears in your life. After all, you gave that novel the best years of your life. What do you do next?

Simple. Start another novel! Keep the writer's high going.

Wrap-up

Well, that's the gist of it, folks. I hope you gained an inkling of how to start and where to go on your journey to writing that novel in you. You will find, as many writers do, that someday you will stand in front of a window and just stare. Others may ask, "What are you doing?" And you will reply with just one word.

"Writing."

- Victory Crayne